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Chapter 31 - Lies
That night Jack had wanted to take the relationship to another level, but through a lecture rather subtle I did understand that she was not ready. It was pretty embarrassing, to the point that I had to confess my virginity, but it with this understanding that characterizes it said - I never thought you were, especially having had a boyfriend in Montevideo - he paused to see emanating shame - but I'm glad you've saved for someone special, would be honored that I was first. And you very well know that I would look like nothing because I love you more than anyone else. Wait - finished smiling couple wide, to which I could not tone down my cheeks crimson. My virginity was not something I'm ashamed, but I knew that maybe this time was becoming outdated and to find a man like him who understood me and supported my decision was a blessing for me.
had been two weeks since my birthday, in fact everything was perfect, or as perfect as could be. The authority was intended, would shortly begin testing and study, which unfortunately reduced my time with Jackson. My relationship with him was wonderful, still can not find the words to describe it is that he treated me in a wonderful and attentive it made me feel very loved and protected, feeling for a couple of years did not feel. That protection can not give you your parents, that can give you only the loved one with a hug, that was what made me feel and he was incredible. I think the word fullness was with the way I felt.
As I said Gabi, his relationship with Robert was going very good shape, and I was glad for them, they both deserved. From what was said would soon marry but not yet confirmed anything, neither had said anything about it. But we were all waiting with that particular issue, we wanted to see our friends happy. But apparently they were not alone in a committed relationship and that Juli could be supplemented with Cam, yeah that blonde guy that I had looked so weird, but if she liked and felt good about it, I was happy for her .
ruled in my love life, and this could be seen everywhere. Around us and so we plunged deeper and deeper into his wonderful magic.
had seen another opportunity for Jackson's friends, in fact the girls and I had gone shopping, so my relationship with them was pretty good. That afternoon we had fun, but I did not buy much because I did not need and did not have the philosophy of "buy and buy." Ashley was angry for a few minutes because I refused to buy and buy for hours, but not all purchases. Although I could not resist and stopped for several if not many minutes in a bookstore. I bought several books, some classics like "One Hundred Years of Solitude" by Gabriel García Márquez, "Our Lady of Paris" (for those who do not know the story of the Hunchback of Notre dam) and "Pride and Prejudice" by Jane Austen. Did not have much time to read it but I would. Luckily I could say I had made friends with these girls, and my luck during our stay at the mall were not photographers, not knowing if I could bear it.
Now we were in the house of Robert. Today I am a month courtship with Jack, and as we knew that on the night we celebrate the group meeting in the morning. He invited me to breakfast at a cafe very picturesque, warm and comforting. He gave me a pink rose, it was the only one who understood that red roses were very cliché, I liked the original. And a beautiful silver bracelet, which was inscribed the date that we knew. We were very happy.
entire cast was not at home of Robert, only those who had no commitments at home, so they were the Cullens, Bella, Jake, James and Victoria, sometimes used to call them by their characters, I knew it bothered them. But Gabi and Juli also missing, which were already part of the group. We enjoyed a few beers and a lot of very good films, criticized what they said that film actors did not convincingly to what I always say - to ordinary humans like us and act - and they laugh immediately.
- we make an announcement - Rob said when the third movie ended. All we worry, but seeing that Gabi was flushed I figured something big.
- My God, you're pregnant! - Exclaimed excited and very happy but both alarmed.
- of course not! - Scared she said, long accumulated air.
- I will not be an aunt so early - I kidding.
- well, not pregnant - went on smiling - even - whispered fun - but we will marry! We all shouted
excited and ran to congratulate them. She was cast in tears, it felt very happy and that made us happy with Julie to me, who had seen grow up and find Rob here in London.
- of course you will be my bridesmaids - Funny said wiping tears in her cheek. With Julieta jump fun and we took a group hug, but we separated when we realized that we were totally ridiculous.
- oh of course you will be my sponsors - Rob quipped, referring to Kellan and Jack. They embraced in a clumsy imitation of us, but when they parted said Rob serious - really be the godparent.
To which they both looked surprised and hugged each other as men among them, I must add that it was very cute face that made Kellan to learn. How? Did I just say exactly? This is wrong! I can not find attractive! Is friends with my boyfriend, whom I love dearly! But is that after that day in the club, I must admit that this view had been full of sweetness in my confused brain on several occasions. And knew not to be especially there, but could not do anything about it.
also had a magnificent discovery, apparently dark lights club would not let me fully admire your eye color was wrong to say they were brown, and how wrong I was. Were as heavenly as the best spring sky, as the more crystalline Caribbean Sea. His eyes spoke for themselves, as do those of Jackson. It was wrong to think of the friend of my boyfriend, I felt betrayed their trust, I felt dirty, unclean. I was disgusting.
- we will celebrate then - said fascinated Kellan - we open a bottle of champagne! - Said fun while everyone laughed. I do not know if you really dreamed but I swear he winked at me. This is definitely not the marriage affected my brain, he would not do that to your friend, that was wrong was me thinking it improper things.
- leaves, I will - I said when he went to the kitchen wanted at least clear my head for a few minutes and I needed not to see.
- as you like - sweet smile said as he sat back on the sofa - put another film - overheard.
Upon reaching the kitchen, I leaned against the counter, I took hands to the face and snap a long sigh. I took a glass of the closet, had been a couple of times so I knew where they stood, opened the tap and drank a little water. It was a waste, I felt the worst, but instead of staying here I decided to meet regretting what he had come. Drinks and champagne, while searching for first in the top of the countertop can hear the gruff voice of Cam - when is the wedding lovebirds? Within a month - said Gabi very safe, they listened radiant.
But then just heard murmurs, which I could not decipher many words. I figured the movie would have begun and I simply keep putting the cups on a tray. When I had finished, carefully picked up the tray with the glasses and champagne in the other hand, but as it was approaching the room I heard my name and I decided to stop the ear.
- when you say Jack? - Very worried and asked to look serious Rob.
- still do not know, I do not hurt - you could tell in his voice that hurt. What he had to learn and Jack did not tell me? I paid more attention yet.
- you do brother, but will hurt even more - said an angry voice and even more worried, which I recognized as Kellan.
- I do not know how to tell - discouraged said Jack. What they should say? I felt that something was wrong and of course I did not like that feeling at all.
- just tell the truth - Nikki said somewhat angrily. It began to be a bad in my chest, something weird and was wrong. What was it hiding? I brought good spine this conversation, but I decided to keep listening, I needed to know that I was hiding.
- is that I once lied to hide my profession - made a pause, sigh and swear apparently also snorted - how it is now, I'll tell you that I go to Los Angeles in two days? - Asked helplessly.
My breathing was stirred, my heart began to bombard blood more quickly and rapidly began with tachycardia. I could still hear whispers in the room, but no sense to me for the simple fact that the man of my life left me. And when that tab so I fell, I dropped the tray with the glasses, causing a loud noise suddenly stopped and all the whispers turned to me. He would go and leave me alone, as did Martin. He would go. He would go. That phrase rang in my head like an echo in an empty cave. I could not tell if it has been seconds, minutes or even hours, could not shake the idea that he would and leave me alone, completely adrift.
Jackson got up and came after me and talked, I could see her lips moving and the distant hum emitting his voice, but not listening. I did not want to know what he had to say, I had lied. Again. It was the second time he did, and was not quite sure that I would forgive him. But right now none of that becomes important, because he would let me. I could feel that my soul was torn and my heart was torn. I felt a deep void in his chest that he felt since that night in Montevideo, when Martin deceived me, but in this case was even worse, much worse. Empty yet full of pain, pain that was killing me every second. He would not know if I could support both.
He was articulating words, which were meaningless to me. The rest of those present looked at us expectantly, attentive and silent. Even my friends had hidden the truth, we all know less dumb Mery. Apparently it was always the last to learn of things. Even Kell, Rob and Ash had the decency to tell me, with them he felt a special connection, but I always had to suffer and ridicule.
Vacuum became angry and wanted to get out of there as soon as possible, so that push Jackson smoothness waiting to run, did not want to hear your excuses. I was sure to be lost, and he did, never refused anything I wanted or asked for. The boys looked at me incredulously, I them spent a cold stare and went through my purse and my coat. I needed to get out. With all the confidence that characterized me I opened the door and went home, I could feel like shouting my name, and Jackson told him to come after me. Why wait for the elevator when urgent, always late? So there I was, angry but mostly hurt waiting for the elevator, which was the only escape would be. Then came Jackson and placed a mi lado y volvió a hablarme, seguí sin entender sus inútiles palabras, incluso se arrodilló para que lo perdonara pero no podía, no podía pensar con demasiada claridad.
Cuando llegó el ascensor, subí a él rápidamente pero antes de que sus puertas de acero se cerraran completamente, pude ver la cara de Jackson completamente roja por el llanto y triste, muy triste.
Pero él no sentía ni medio de lo que yo sentía, estaba destrozada por dentro. Sabía que no toleraba la mentira, y viene a hacer justo lo que más me molesta, sabiendo aún que no lo perdonaría dos veces. Me sentía usada, y entonces salí al nevado Londres y perdí en la oscuridad, como un zombi. Un real zombie.
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